Six Years Back

The re-encouter is so real. While it's only an image running through my head and projected out into the world the fear is like never before. Growing intensely as the day continues, I replace the people with those who did and who did not exist. Who would've known? Six years, 7 months and exactly fifteen days later the running would once again commence. It's unreal, true the fear are only thoughts which quickly grow over time because the development shouts to be let out but what for? The last year is here and trouble is unnecessary. The truth however, she should've known. The likelihood of it happening was so much greater when things started playing out exactly as she saw they would. Why however tell? The visions to others are unreal, incapable - a psychotic movement. Might as well stay quiet. The next part to come is only 30 minutes away and they are so blind to it. But her, her only will for safety would be to admit it all and risk the sequential February routine which we've so been trying to aboid. As she sits here, she talks to her. Trying to put a smile, trying to deceive the idea out slowly because she just as anybody else knows the limits which this child contains. What for however? Typing, on the phone, conversation, memories. Run! That's all she thinks, that's all she wants to do. Why risk it? Knowing that in 13 minutes they begin there practice. They're all their. She can see it, hear it. The blood draining down, those beautiful eyes crying out. She stands on top to ashamed to do anything. To afraid to move in for the one she loves. The thought runs. If only she knew. Kristo, her name lives. But Leids does not. The decision is up for battle, all that is heard now is Mowes voice "But we all know if she does both will get in trouble even if we know she was only doing it as defense". Heart raising, chest beating, body shaking, the images continue... Run! says the voice "Run! Nobody's going to save you now."